Thoughts and an Apology

I like to think that the people that read my blog are a pack of roving Steppenwolves, wandering aimlessly through a world that is far too strict and set in its ways to really take notice of these strange, lonely people. I like to think that some of you are writers and artists yourselves, come to gloat or share in my strangeness for a while. That you are languid sleepers wandering into my home in a torpor, come to ask advice and simply enjoy yourselves---at least, that's what I hope it's like. I don't want this to be about me (even though it's my blog...) for some reason I could never have something like that. I would much rather it be a place where you can share and talk and feel free to criticize me, to share your work, your feelings and thoughts just as I do. I want it to be that. I want it to be that all you strange wanderers into the dark and weird can have a place where for a moment you can share in something that perhaps you wouldn't be able to before.

I've always been a lonely person. And, even though the internet has found me a few very good friends, it has also been a place of deep longing and fear for me all my life. I hate the idea of a self absorbed artist sitting at his computer, writing this and that and expecting everyone to give a flying fuck. Since I started this blog I wanted it to be a place where people can be free and talk and read about my occasional bouts of insanity.

I'm sure some of you will remember the short time that I used this blog as a kind of short story magazine. I loved doing that. I loved reading through the work people sent me, talking with them and then publishing them on my blog. It never got to the point where I was doing a lot of stories, much to my chagrin, but I still loved it. Then, as I was working on submissions for the second issue, I got self concerned and paranoid and so deleted everything to do with the makeshift magazine. For that I apologize to all my readers, all the contributors and everyone who sent me a submission. I'm very, very sorry for that. I would love to try it again, and have been thinking up new things for it.

I don't really have anything else to say, really. So, as usual, I guess this is where I stop. Please let me know if you're interested in giving the magazine thing another try, and if not, again, I'm sorry. 

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