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The Fountain Dancers

I still don't know what the hell happened.

Not the best way to start a recount of a moment in my life but I've no other way to tell it. I have no idea what the hell I saw one day in February of this year. Well, that isn't entirely true. I do know what I saw and that's about all I can give you.

So, to begin. It was Friday afternoon in Old Towne Orange. I had just come from my shift at the library, had lunch and was reading Don Quixote in the park. It was a nice day, there was a calm breeze in the still chill air and for once the Circle was quiet of all the cars dangerously driving through the roundabout. There weren't many people at the park, maybe a few couples scattered around. I would occasionally glance up to watch birds flying through the flowering Jacaranda trees, the beautiful citrus scent of the few orange trees was comforting and familiar. It was a very poetic setting. Idyllic, beautiful, complete with a babbling fountain in the center and gentle winds.

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Whatever

I've been feeling very unfulfilled, very lonely and angry lately. Feeling like nobody cares, nobody gives a crap. Feeling like there's nothing anymore and that my little basket of worries is starting to overfill, getting ready to topple over once again. I don't feel right in my skin anymore. I don't feel well. I'm tired and I can't stop thinking about how tired I am. I'm annoyed and sick of feeling sick and alone and tired and angry. I'm just done with most things right and I think I need to change something. I need to do something. I don't like this. I hate all this. Whatever.

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I hate this all.